New Beginnings: Trust and Belief Reboot

Oh my goodness gracious it has been such a long time. I’m sure you all thought I had forgotten about Trust and Belief, but I hadn’t.  I have huge plans for the brand and I can’t wait to begin revealing all the plans to y’all.  I definitely needed to take a break to decide what direction I wanted to head in.  I was still posting on my instagram and twitter just so you would all know that I was still here, but even that became difficult because I have been so busy.  I went on a bunch of trips this summer (stories coming soon),  got a job, and I just don’t know where all my time went.  I’m a high school senior now and this year has and is going to be the busiest of my life.  I felt terrible when I stopped posting consistently, but like I said,  I think it was for the best.  Now, it is October and I thought the best time to relaunch would be a year after I began this whole journey.  I’m ready to make all of this my priority again and begin creating new content that I am proud of and that I genuinely love.

So, I wanted to talk about what changes may be coming to this blog first and then I will talk about my videos. Not much will be changing here. I changed up the color scheme of the site and I updated the Who I Am Page, but the blog posts will pretty much stay the same. I still love my logo and branding so nothing is different. The blog posts are also going to be more story geared posts rather than lessons I’m trying to teach. I think the best way to share Christ is through personal testimonies. The biggest difference is that my posts are going to more consistent.

The biggest changes are coming to the type of videos I produce.  My content is going to be totally different than Spoken Word Poetry.  This doesn’t mean I hate spoken word poetry or that I will never do it again, but I had gotten bored and run out of poem ideas.  I want to be creating sit-down videos where I get to talk and connect with people.  While I’ve been taking a break I’ve been working a lot to be able to purchase some things that will make my videos better like a backdrop, ring light, DLSR camera, and some other cool equipment. There has definitely been a learning curve with the new camera, but I know I will get better as time goes on and I learn more about it.  Obviously these things aren’t required to make a good video, but I want my production quality to be as high as possible. My room is actually in the process of  being redone as well and I’m adding a bunch of awesome little filming areas.

I’m most excited about the new videos I will be making. I’ve created a new intro that I absolutely love! I’m going to be starting a 5 part series called “Getting to Know Me“.  I want to start with these videos because no one wants to watch someone’s videos or read their blog when they know nothing about them. This is the first of this series and it will be followed by My Testimony, What Happened on Beach Week (My Baptism Story), My SLU Experience, My Dreams, and it will end with a Room Tour Video when my room is finished. After these 5 videos I’m going to play around with the type of videos I create. I know I want to share my Bible Study Routine, talk about my anxiety, give some book recommendations, and do some story times.  I also want to create some videos with my friends and cover my favorite songs.  I’ve been in contact with several licensing companies so that I’ll be creating my music legally. Each video will have a blog post with it just like usual so if you’re more into reading than watching you can just come here.

I’m trying to promise consistency.  I really am.  I also am a high school senior with a job and a lot of college stuff happening.  I love creating new things and I feel very empty when I don’t work on the things I love.  I love all of you who read this blog and/or watch my videos and I want to create things you will enjoy.  I can’t wait to show you everything  I’m creating and all of my dreams for the future.  Be sure to let me know what you think about the reboot and what you would like for me to create in the future.

I can’t wait to talk to you all super soon!


John 15:13 : “Greater love has none than this; to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.”





Let’s Talk About…Politics (Not Really)

Hey! I’m back! I took a little longer off than I expected off due to unforeseen circumstances (I broke my computer, school, illness, etc.) Anyway, I’m here now and I’m ready to get back to the poetry stuff and the blog stuff. *I really hope to get back to a consistent schedule too.*

Since the last time I posted it’s been New Years Day, Valentines Day, and a bunch of other days. One of the most memorable days this year is the U.S.A. inauguration day, but I’ll get to the politics part in a minute. Since I’ve been gone for so long, I wanted to touch on something that I was planning to post about in January. (See above for reasons why it didn’t happen) I’ll probably talk about it more in depth next post, but I wanted to tell you guys what my New Year’s resolution was…I’M READING THROUGH THE ENTIRE BIBLE IN A YEAR! So far it’s been going pretty great and I’m loving doing it. I highly recommend starting a bible reading challenge if you have never tried one.

Now to the politics stuff…sorta. The title of this post is “Let’s Talk About Politics”, but today’s thoughts are only inspired by the current U.S.A. political situation. Today, I want to talk about how we should treat the authority in our lives. All this applies to any sort of leadership in our lives, but my main focus today is political leaders.

There are a lot of very strong opinions about the political discourse in the United States currently. Especially about President Trump. There have been riots, petitions, and anything you can think of that people are using as a way to get their opinions about the United States leadership heard. I fully believe in the freedom of speech. Everyone has the right to express their beliefs peacefully and respectfully, but when it goes past peaceful and respectful there is a problem. No one has the right to be disrespectful to the people who have been appointed as leadership over them. Something I saw that made me really angry was #notmypresident because it shows a blatant disrespect for the authority God appointed over the country. And yes, God appointed President Trump as the leader. Romans 13:1 says, “Let every person be subject to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and those that exist have been instituted by God.” There is a reason that person who is in power has that position, and we have no idea how God can and will use them during there time in power. You don’t have to love everything your authority says, does, or believes in. However, you do have to respect their laws and rules, if they are reasonable. In the end they are doing what they believe is best for the people they are leading. God can use our leaders to influence entire populations. We don’t want to hinder what God is trying to do through them by shaming or refusing to follow them. Hebrews 13:17 says, “Obey your leaders and submit to them, for they are keeping watch over your souls, as those who will have to give an account. Let them do this with joy and not with groaning, for that would be of no advantage to you.”

The question is…How can we help our leaders if we want them to lead their people to God? We should pray for our authority, every single day. That is how we can best help them. If we are fairly certain that they are not Christ-followers, then we should pray that God uses the Christians they encounter to point them towards the Lord. We can pray that the Lord will work in their lives, and that they accept him and use his guidance to lead their country to God. Whether they are Christians or Non-Christians we can pray that the Christ-followers in power along side them can help them to seek the Lord’s guidance. Pray that they will listen to promptings from God when they are making decisions. If your country elects leaders pray that strong, Godly people are elected into positions of power. Pray that your leaders will turn entire populations back to God.

That all being said, if the person in charge does or tries to make you do things that go against God’s commandments, follow God. Acts 5:29 says, “But Peter and the apostles answered, “We must obey God rather than men.”” God is in control of who he puts in leadership, but we are in control of whether we stand up when we see our leaders pointing us away from Christ. If going against our earthly authority leads to a furthering of God’s kingdom, then by all means we should do what God is commanding us to do. Take for example countries that ban Christianity and/or the Bible. Many missionaries sneak into those countries regularly to give Bible and preach about the gospel to people who aren’t allowed by their earthly authority to learn about God. They may be breaking the law, but they are doing what is favorable in God’s eyes. They risk everything to get the word of God out into the world, but they will be rewarded for it in eternity. Even Jesus did this during his time on Earth. He was hung on a cross for breaking the rules set in place by the religious authorities, but he did nothing wrong in God’s eyes. We can have a healthy respect for all the authority put in place to rule over us, but I also believe that sometimes God puts ungodly authority in place to see if his people will rise up and stand up for what is right in his eyes. Just remember, even when we do this, it is a respectful disobedience driven by a righteous anger for the sinful things done by the authority. We don’t get to disobey just for the sake of rebelling.

I want to encourage you to be supportive of those who lead you. I pray that we will all remember who appointed them there, and that we will pray that God will use them to further his kingdom, with God’s guidance their leadership could lead entire populations to Christ.  My challenge for you guys as well as myself is to pray for our leadership consistently, particularly the leaders of our countries. The more we pray the more God works and that’s really awesome. I also pray that we will stand up for what is right and Godly in a world full of wrong. I want to encourage those of you who are under leadership or in a place that tries to keep you from following God. Always remember God is your highest authority, and he is always working for the good of his children. So, stand up for your faith and follow God every step of the way.

Also, I have two recommendations. The first is the book God’s Smuggler. It is a true story about the journey of an Undercover missionary, like the ones I was talking about earlier. My second recommendation is for those who are interested in becoming the Godly leaders of the next generation. Check out Student Leadership University. They are super invested in developing the next generation of leaders. and it’s an awesome experience

Thank you guys for reading! It truly means a lot. I’m so thankful for the opportunity I have to create my Spoken Words { don’t forget to check out today’s video 😉 } and blog posts. I love you all very much.


Bible Verses about Respecting Authority

  • Romans 13:2-5
  • Titus 3:1
  • 1 Peter 2:18
  • Matthew 28:18

This Week’s Spoken Word: HERE 




I have to be honest the holidays are sneaking up on me and I didn’t even realize we were so close to Thanksgiving (probably why this is going up on Thursday, but let’s just keep thinking that I totally did this on purpose) Now it’s here. It’s Thanksgiving. The holidays are the busiest part of the year for me, and often I think I get caught up in all the madness. Sometimes, I think I just forget how awesome God is and everything he does for me. I forget how thankful I am for the life I’ve been given. It’s frustrating to think that I only remember to focus on my thankfulness during the holidays, and I’m working to change that.

I’ve been thinking about all the things I’m thankful for, and I began to make a list to help me write this Spoken Word. I realized everything I was thankful for came from God. God is pretty awesome and I think for this week I just want to talk about everything he is and does that we should be thankful for every single day.

It’s easy to forget how many things God provides for us on a daily basis. A teacher reminded me Tuesday. “If you don’t have what you’d like to have, be thankful for what you do have.” If you’re reading this you’ve at least got something pretty cool. Internet. I’m willing to bet that you’ve also got a house with some pretty nice things. I obviously could be wrong, I don’t know you all personally. I suppose I should speak for myself. It’s so easy to take for granted everything around me. I go to the pantry and pick out whatever snack I want. I have water coming out of faucets and a home with heat and air. I have a computer that helps me with school work and I can use it just for fun too. I often never think about how how easy it was for me to sit and make this blog. God provided me with everything I needed to start this venture. He provided me with inspiration from my friends, the drive to start it, and the talent to write poetry and the talent of being able to express my thoughts well when they are being written down. It’s also easy for me to forget it isn’t me doing the talking. Just the writing. I’m thankful for a God who gives me the words to say when I need them.I’m thankful he gives me what I need when I need it.

With God there is infinite joy no matter the situation. I’m so thankful for that, because without God’s joy I would just be a hopeless pile of crying mush. Recently, in Student Ministry, some parents of a student who passed away from my school spoke on how God is a God of comfort. They were thankful for the impact their son had on students he was friends with, even after he passed away. They were thankful for God, because of who he is. They were joyful even in one of their hardest situations of their lives. I’m thankful for a God of joy who can give peace and happiness in times of trouble.

I’m just plain thankful for a God who puts up with all my mistakes. I’m thankful for his forgiveness and his constant presence even when I’m being a not-so-great person and I’m not always meeting him when and where I should be. I’m thankful he doesn’t give up on me even when it seems like I could be giving up on him. He always shows me his power and strength. I’m thankful that he shows me when I make mistakes and then when he proceeds to be an unswerving support while I’m working towards growing.

I’m thankful for the series of events in history that led to this exact moment in history, with all our technology and improvements in overall world health. All of them were in God’s perfect plan. I’m thankful for Jesus and the fact that he died for me. I’m thankful to live in the United States where I can worship a God freely in a church that anyone can come to. I’m thankful for the life I’ve been given. I could go on and on, but honestly, I’m just thankful. I’m thankful for everything and I don’t even know how to express this overwhelming gratitude I feel.

This is probably the most cheesy thing people say on Thanksgiving, but I’m going to say it anyway. Always remember that we shouldn’t just be thankful on Thanksgiving. Thankfulness is important every, single day of the year. I know that it’s really easy for me to forget that, and I’m almost positive I’m not alone in that struggle. If we don’t look back at all we have laid before us, we forget how awesome God is and how blessed we really are. I pray that during this holiday season, we all can remember how much we truly have to be thankful for, and I pray we will remember everyday to thank God for everything he has provided for us.

Wishing You all the happiest of Thanksgivings!


Bible Verses about Thanksgiving:

  • Psalm 9:1
  • Psalm 107:8-9
  • 1 Chronicles 16:34
  • Psalm 100:4
  • 1 Thessalonians 5:18

P.S. I know the holidays can be hard for many people, but just remember that even though it is a time for remembering and celebrating people we lost, there is a God who is always there when we are hurting. He never leaves us. He provides comfort for those who are suffering and a peace in knowing that if those we love were believers, we will see them again one day. That’s quite something to be thankful for.

P.P.S. I’m also super thankful for all my friends, family, and others around me. I could never be the person I am without them. I could never be writing things like this without all your encouragement and support. Thank you all for being there for me and helping me through anything and everything. I’m grateful I get to go through life will all you amazing people. You guys know who you are. 😉

 This Week’s Spoken Word: HERE


Everything is Going to Be Okay

“Life is difficult and full of disappointments, but that’s okay.”

-Jess Helms (me)

There’s a good story behind that quote. I promise. In fact, for a long time, that wasn’t even the quote. It was originally, “Life is difficult and full of disappointments.” It was an inside joke between myself and my best friends when little things didn’t go our way, but slowly I realized that it was pretty pessimistic. So, when I writing this Spoken Word, God showed me how I can turn a pretty negative statement into a super uplifting statement. I think it’s even better now than when I created it.

Psalm 34:17 – When the righteous cry for help, the LORD hears and delivers them out of all their troubles.

I’m not under the impression that I have some horrible life. I know that I’m incredibly blessed and I have a ton of opportunities that many people around the world don’t have. I have a great community of Christian friends surrounding me and a church I can call my home all the time. (but let’s not talk about everything I’m thankful for… that’s for next time) However, just like everyone else, I do have rough times. I get sad, angry, and hurt. I’m sure you can relate. Struggling is no fun, especially when you feel like you are going through it alone. I have good news. God is beside you through everything. He is always right by your side when your struggles seem to overwhelm you. God uses our struggles to help us grow closer to him and he helps strengthen us in our faith. God even uses our struggles to help others around us grow.

These last few months have been pretty rough, but God really used them as an opportunity to teach me how to lean on him and not the people around me. I lost some things that were really important to me, and I genuinely felt like I could never possibly recover. Looking back, I realize how much God helped me through probably the hardest time of my life, and how losing those things have really helped me mature. At the time, all I could do was just pray that he would take the pain away, and everyday a little bit of pain left my soul. And I’m not saying everything is rosy now. Sometimes a hint of those negative feelings still sneaks in, but God always puts joy in its place. Without all those struggles God allowed me to go through, I would never have changed my perspective. I’m sure I wouldn’t be making videos and creating blog posts like this.

Often, God uses our struggles to encourage others around us. Whether that be someone seeing you in the middle of your struggle and watching you lean on God, or you using that situation as a part of your testimony to encourage others afterwards-which allows you to show how God has gotten you through it You get to show them you are still okay and joyful at the other side of it. This gives you a great opportunity to give the glory to God.

I bet you guessed it. I have a story to go with this point too. 😉

So a few months before I hit my “rock bottom” one of my friends hit it first and bounced back. I remember calling her and saying I felt like “all the strings broke.” She reminded me that there were always ways for me to bounce back and that God was going to get me through it no matter what. She really used her experiences to bring me back to the reality of how powerful God is. He had me in the palm of his hand the entire time and when I put my focus on him I could truly feel that. She helped me through it by sharing what God showed her through her experiences. It was super helpful to have a strong Christian who had gone through the same things as me there to talk to me and have encourage me in my relationship with Christ.

A few months after I began to start healing, another one of my friends began having to deal with something very similar. This time myself and the friend who helped me both tried to encourage her. We both shared our individual experiences and how God got us through them. I like to believe our stories helped her at least a little bit. That’s what being a part of the church is all about. We are there for each other to encourage and draw those around us closer to God.

The point I’m trying to make is… embrace your struggles. They’re obviously not fun, and sometimes it’s hard to remember that God has a purpose for everything that happens. However, the sooner you look up and consider why you might be going through that at this particular time in your life, you can begin to lean on God and he will show you exactly where your path is headed. As long as you remember to stay faithful to him things will always get better, because God will never let you struggle forever. He will use your struggles in ways you can never imagine. Just remember if you’re not okay, it’s not the end.

I’m praying that all of you will remain strong in your faith and that you will lean on God throughout all your struggles. I hope you all will also be praying for me these next few weeks as well.

I love you all very much and I appreciate your support.


Bible Verses:

  • Psalm 9:9
  • Psalm 56:3-4
  • 1 John 4:4
  • Romans 8:18
  • Philippians 4:19
  • James 1:12
  • 2 Corinthians 1:9

This week’s Spoken Word: HERE


Trust and Belief

When I created this blog I didn’t know what I wanted to call it. I tried a lot of ideas and either they were taken or I just didn’t like how they sounded. Eventually I came up with “trust and belief”. At first I didn’t know how to relate those two words and coming up with a “Spoken Word” was kind of difficult. This was probably because I didn’t really take the time to think about what they meant. But when I did and I studied more verses, prayed and really thought about these two ideas; in the end, I learned a lot.

Essentially trust and belief mean pretty much the same thing. The definition of trust is “firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.” Now, you may have noticed that the word belief is in the definition of trust. I’ll get back to that in a second. Here’s the definition of belief: “trust, faith, or confidence in someone or something.” Trust is in the definition of belief. While doing this research I discovered that they are synonyms. I’m sure you came to that conclusion as well.

Whether you call it trust or belief the idea is the basis of giving over control to God and letting him complete the task.

Honestly, I am a very stubborn person. I’m not a huge fan of change, and I like to be in control. One of my biggest struggles is giving that control over and just going a long for the ride.

Recently, I got really sad. There is something I’ve been really praying about and it seems to be going nowhere fast. All I wanted was to see results and I felt like God wasn’t listening and I was fighting an uphill battle alone. In times like this it is really easy to get discouraged. I believe in God’s faithfulness, but often I find it difficult to trust that he will take care of everything, especially when it feels like everything is going wrong. When I get to this point, I like to look back in the bible and see stories where God has shown his power to the people who believe and trust in him.

Bartimaeus believed that Jesus could give him back his sight, and he did. This did not require any action on his part, just the faith that Jesus, being the Son of God, could change everything about his current situation. (Mark 10:46-52). Peter trusted that Jesus would help him walk on the water, and he did. However, as soon as he stopped trusting him he began to sink (Matthew 14:22-33). The Israelites wandered for 40 years and they still believed that God would provide a land for them. They walked for all those years in a land where they were afraid they would never find a home, but God provided for them. In fact, this land sill belongs to them today. My favorite is probably Mary and Joseph. They both trusted that God was going to take care of them. Even when Mary could have been punished for her pregnancy, Joseph wasn’t sure what to do, and there was no room for them in the inns. God provided for them through the entire way and in the end they became the earthly parents of the Messiah. There are so many more examples of this in the Bible and I think that is so encouraging.

Everyone who believes is saved. That’s amazing. All we have to do is believe that Jesus died for us and saved us from our sins, and we get to have a relationship with him. I just think that’s incredible. It doesn’t take good works or a series of steps to receive salvation. We just have to believe.

We have so much evidence supporting that the word of God is true, and yet, it is still hard to trust in God sometimes. When I feel a lack of faith, I just have to remember, “If all of these people and many more can trust God through their trials, and I can trust God through mine.” He has proven over and over again that he is faithful. We just have to trust his process and believe in his power.

I was talking to my best friends about this particular situation, and one of them reminded me why I keep waiting and trusting. God keeps his promises. She reminded me that I just have to trust that God is going to do the rest of the work if it’s in his will. Everything will work out in God’s timing, his way. His way is going to be more awesome than I can ever imagine. My job is to plant a seed and pray. Let me tell you, I truly believe in the power of prayer. Every time I’m feeling sad or discouraged prayer is my number one defense. After I pray, I usually feel a little less hopeless and God reminds me over and over again that he is in control. I just have to believe that he has the power to turn my situation around. Since coming to this realization, I have seen some steps forward that I probably would have never seen if I didn’t relinquish the control over to God. I love seeing how God works in the lives of those who put their trust in him.

I pray that all of you believe that God can provide for you even in your darkest times. I pray that you trust in his faithfulness.

If you share some of my struggles or are dubious to the truth of the ideas I have shared, I encourage you to read the stories I mentioned or the verses listed below. You can also message me and I can share more about my experience with trusting and believing in God’s faithfulness.

Always remember that prayer is a powerful connection to God and I encourage you to pray without ceasing. God will reveal some of his most powerful truths though a personal connection with him.


Bible Verses relating to Trust:

  • Joshua 1:9
  • Psalm 9:10
  • Psalm 56:3
  • Proverbs 3:5-6
  • Romans 15:13

Bible Verses relating to Belief:

  • John 20:29
  • John 14:1
  • John 3:16
  • Romans 8:38-39

(Here’s a completely unrelated story, but prayer is cool and I’d like to share)

About a week ago, I had an audition for a choir. I got sick about the week before, and I had been unable to practice. For the days up until that audition and even the minutes before, I prayed that I would get my voice back for at least my audition. All I wanted was to be proud of my audition and know that I performed to the best of my ability, regardless of the results. That day I learned a simple truth, God provides. I got my voice back in my audition, and it was probably my best audition ever. I tried to sing after and my voice was back to being scratchy (go figure). I realized then that God had answered my prayer, and that was such a cool feeling. I may have not made that choir, but I’m proud of my audition and God really revealed how he works. I truly believe that he was there, helped calm my nerves and gave me back my voice so I could use my gifts for his glory. (much of the music was faith based which is also really cool) This was a very minor situation, but if God cares enough to answer my prayer about getting my voice back for an audition, imagine how much he cares about healing a sick family member, helping you find a job, or even leading someone you are praying for to Christ. Matthew 6:26 says, Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?” Essentially, he is saying, “God cares about the birds in the sky, don’t you think he cares about those who were created in his image.?” No prayer is too small, and God never leaves a prayer unanswered.

This Week’s Spoken Word: HERE