Heart for the Homeless Pt. 1

Hello! So I could give a whole explanation about why it’s been forever since I’ve posted, and I could try to promise to keep up a regular schedule from now on but I won’t. Let’s be real I can’t promise that even if I wanted to, so I’m just going to focus on this series of three posts for now. (P.S. I FINALLY GRADUATED SO I HAVE MORE TIME FOR FUN THINGS LIKE THIS BLOG)

Today I want to share about one of the best things that God has ever let happen to me. It’s been a story I’ve been wanting to tell for four years and I truly don’t know why it’s taken me so long to write it all down. These series of events have shaped my entire testimony, and without this story and the people in it I would not be the person I am today. Hopefully I can remember all the details but when I think about these events it’s like they happened yesterday so I should be fine. So here’s part one of this story. Look for the next part soon.


When I was in 8th grade, my youth choir traveled to Poughkeepsie, New York for our summer mission trip. Since I was in one of the small ensembles, I went with my group to sing at a place called The Lunch Box. This is a place that provides a free lunch and dinner to people from all over the city who are in need of food. Before we sang, we served lunch to the men and women that came there and I was not very happy about doing it. I was uncomfortable and socially awkward and all I wanted to do was run away because serving food meant talking to a bunch of strangers. However, I made it through that and it was finally time to sing. I assumed it would just be a regular concert where a few people would listen to be polite and some might even would be invested in what we were singing, the rest wouldn’t care, and we would be out of there without any abnormalities. For the most part, I was right but I was also very wrong.

There was one thing I didn’t expect. We were singing one of the songs that our large choir normally would sing called “Someone Worth Dying For”.  If  I was being honest, it wasn’t my absolute favorite song but I thought it was pretty good and thought it had a sweet message. Looking back, it’s one of the most perfect songs to sing in front of a group like that. Towards the end of the song, I looked up to see a woman crying a few tables down from where I was standing and there was a man with her trying to console her best as he could. I knew they had both been moved by the words we were singing. As soon as I looked up and saw her I felt a prompting I was not prepared for. God wanted me to break away from the group (which was definitely not technically allowed) and go hug this woman. Me. The little socially awkward, scared 8th grader who hated to do anything that made people look at her, was supposed to go hug a complete stranger in front of a group of complete strangers. I tried to fight it. To be fair I put up a pretty good fight but there was no denying what I needed to do. So I did it. My heart was pounding and I was terrified that she would reject my hug and I would be totally embarrassed but I did it. As I walked away from the group and I could hear the sound of my friends behind me trying to figure out what the heck I was doing, and I could feel the eyes of everyone in the room looking at me. The amazing thing is, as soon as she and I hugged I knew I had made one of the best decisions of my life. I would also soon find out that I had just met one of the most incredible people ever.

After that, I went back to my place in the choir, we continued singing, and we finished the concert. As soon as we were done, she came up to me and gave me another huge hug and then hugged my best friend, Liv, standing next to me. She told us that what we had done had really blessed and spoke to her and that she was going to try to come to our large group’s concert that night in the building’s auditorium. I was ecstatic because that meant I was going to get to talk to her more plus introduce her to my mom and all my other friends. So, we said our goodbyes and both left feeling way better than we did when we came. Unfortunately, as soon as I left I realized I didn’t catch her name.

I spent the rest of the day telling all my friends about what happened. I was both excited about the concert that night but also worried that she night not show up which would mean I would never see her again to find out her name. My friends spent the day reminding me that what’s supposed to happen is going to happen and if she was meant to be at the concert she would be. I knew they were right but of course I wanted her to be there so bad that it was hard to trust that God was going to work everything out. Finally, it was time for the concert and I spent all the time during soundcheck and the break before looking at the doors so that I would see exactly when she walked in. When my friends went to the bathroom they said they may have seen someone that looked like the woman I had described but she had her daughter with her so I wasn’t sure if they had really seen her. She didn’t come in before the concert started and at that point I was pretty sad but I had come to terms with the idea that we had both been blessed by that small interaction and that was all we needed. I was just ready to have a great night. To my surprise, she and her family walked in during one of the first songs and I remember looking at my friends with pure excitement trying to get them to see what I saw. Part of the way through her boyfriend left, and I later found out it was so he could get back to the place he stayed during the nights. I was sad he had to leave but I was just content with the fact that the whole family had gotten to come at all. After the concert, I immediately dragged my friends over to talk to her and it was a blast. I found out her name. It was Bridget. I also got to know her two kids. I found out more of her story, introduced her to my mom, and we took a really fantastic picture. It’s a day I will never forget.


The next few days, we went back to The Lunch Box one or two more times and I talked to Bridget and Michael and my mom got to even meet him too. I no longer dreaded going to serve at The Lunch Box. I valued my time there. One of the days, Bridget told me that after our concert her little girl just got down on her knees prayed on the stairs at the place that she and her kids stayed. I honestly thought that was one of the sweetest things I had ever heard. On our last night in Poughkeepsie, we sang in Hyde Park by the river. Bridget and her kids came to one final concert and we had an awesome time talking and chasing her kids around so that we could take good pictures.

At the end of the night, my friends and I ran off the stage as fast as we could so we could maximize our time with her before we said goodbye. There were lots of tears all around but it was a beautiful few minutes. When some of our older friends saw what was happening, they came and asked to pray with all of us so we did that too.


Finally, we said goodbye for the last time. My mom got her cell number and we promised to keep in touch. At last, we figured we had kept the bus waiting long enough so we left. I was one of the last on the bus and as we pulled away I looked back at her one last time. I cried all the way back to the hotel. Someone on the bus asked me if they were happy or sad tears. I said they were both.

Bridget told me that I blessed her and that what I did saved her life. I’ll take her word for it. Honestly, it was all God. I never would have gone up and hugged her on my own. That’s not really my style. God orchestrated everything about that situation perfectly. He distributed blessings all around. I have learned the power of God’s promptings and getting out of my comfort zone and the blessings that come when I follow his will. This story is the ultimate reminder of God’s faithfulness. I’ve seen how a reminder of his love can change someone’s path forever and how they will affect others around them. I met one of the greatest women in the world because God put us in the same place at the same time. She left me with words of wisdom that I will carry with me forever. So yes, what God did through me and my friends blessed her but she and her family blessed us as well.

Thank you Bridget. I love you.

This Week’s Video: HERE



Let’s Talk About…Politics (Not Really)

Hey! I’m back! I took a little longer off than I expected off due to unforeseen circumstances (I broke my computer, school, illness, etc.) Anyway, I’m here now and I’m ready to get back to the poetry stuff and the blog stuff. *I really hope to get back to a consistent schedule too.*

Since the last time I posted it’s been New Years Day, Valentines Day, and a bunch of other days. One of the most memorable days this year is the U.S.A. inauguration day, but I’ll get to the politics part in a minute. Since I’ve been gone for so long, I wanted to touch on something that I was planning to post about in January. (See above for reasons why it didn’t happen) I’ll probably talk about it more in depth next post, but I wanted to tell you guys what my New Year’s resolution was…I’M READING THROUGH THE ENTIRE BIBLE IN A YEAR! So far it’s been going pretty great and I’m loving doing it. I highly recommend starting a bible reading challenge if you have never tried one.

Now to the politics stuff…sorta. The title of this post is “Let’s Talk About Politics”, but today’s thoughts are only inspired by the current U.S.A. political situation. Today, I want to talk about how we should treat the authority in our lives. All this applies to any sort of leadership in our lives, but my main focus today is political leaders.

There are a lot of very strong opinions about the political discourse in the United States currently. Especially about President Trump. There have been riots, petitions, and anything you can think of that people are using as a way to get their opinions about the United States leadership heard. I fully believe in the freedom of speech. Everyone has the right to express their beliefs peacefully and respectfully, but when it goes past peaceful and respectful there is a problem. No one has the right to be disrespectful to the people who have been appointed as leadership over them. Something I saw that made me really angry was #notmypresident because it shows a blatant disrespect for the authority God appointed over the country. And yes, God appointed President Trump as the leader. Romans 13:1 says, “Let every person be subject to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and those that exist have been instituted by God.” There is a reason that person who is in power has that position, and we have no idea how God can and will use them during there time in power. You don’t have to love everything your authority says, does, or believes in. However, you do have to respect their laws and rules, if they are reasonable. In the end they are doing what they believe is best for the people they are leading. God can use our leaders to influence entire populations. We don’t want to hinder what God is trying to do through them by shaming or refusing to follow them. Hebrews 13:17 says, “Obey your leaders and submit to them, for they are keeping watch over your souls, as those who will have to give an account. Let them do this with joy and not with groaning, for that would be of no advantage to you.”

The question is…How can we help our leaders if we want them to lead their people to God? We should pray for our authority, every single day. That is how we can best help them. If we are fairly certain that they are not Christ-followers, then we should pray that God uses the Christians they encounter to point them towards the Lord. We can pray that the Lord will work in their lives, and that they accept him and use his guidance to lead their country to God. Whether they are Christians or Non-Christians we can pray that the Christ-followers in power along side them can help them to seek the Lord’s guidance. Pray that they will listen to promptings from God when they are making decisions. If your country elects leaders pray that strong, Godly people are elected into positions of power. Pray that your leaders will turn entire populations back to God.

That all being said, if the person in charge does or tries to make you do things that go against God’s commandments, follow God. Acts 5:29 says, “But Peter and the apostles answered, “We must obey God rather than men.”” God is in control of who he puts in leadership, but we are in control of whether we stand up when we see our leaders pointing us away from Christ. If going against our earthly authority leads to a furthering of God’s kingdom, then by all means we should do what God is commanding us to do. Take for example countries that ban Christianity and/or the Bible. Many missionaries sneak into those countries regularly to give Bible and preach about the gospel to people who aren’t allowed by their earthly authority to learn about God. They may be breaking the law, but they are doing what is favorable in God’s eyes. They risk everything to get the word of God out into the world, but they will be rewarded for it in eternity. Even Jesus did this during his time on Earth. He was hung on a cross for breaking the rules set in place by the religious authorities, but he did nothing wrong in God’s eyes. We can have a healthy respect for all the authority put in place to rule over us, but I also believe that sometimes God puts ungodly authority in place to see if his people will rise up and stand up for what is right in his eyes. Just remember, even when we do this, it is a respectful disobedience driven by a righteous anger for the sinful things done by the authority. We don’t get to disobey just for the sake of rebelling.

I want to encourage you to be supportive of those who lead you. I pray that we will all remember who appointed them there, and that we will pray that God will use them to further his kingdom, with God’s guidance their leadership could lead entire populations to Christ.  My challenge for you guys as well as myself is to pray for our leadership consistently, particularly the leaders of our countries. The more we pray the more God works and that’s really awesome. I also pray that we will stand up for what is right and Godly in a world full of wrong. I want to encourage those of you who are under leadership or in a place that tries to keep you from following God. Always remember God is your highest authority, and he is always working for the good of his children. So, stand up for your faith and follow God every step of the way.

Also, I have two recommendations. The first is the book God’s Smuggler. It is a true story about the journey of an Undercover missionary, like the ones I was talking about earlier. My second recommendation is for those who are interested in becoming the Godly leaders of the next generation. Check out Student Leadership University. They are super invested in developing the next generation of leaders. and it’s an awesome experience

Thank you guys for reading! It truly means a lot. I’m so thankful for the opportunity I have to create my Spoken Words { don’t forget to check out today’s video 😉 } and blog posts. I love you all very much.


Bible Verses about Respecting Authority

  • Romans 13:2-5
  • Titus 3:1
  • 1 Peter 2:18
  • Matthew 28:18

This Week’s Spoken Word: HERE 


Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas Everyone! I took a few weeks off to focus on my church’s Christmas production, but I’m back now and better than ever. Christmas is tomorrow and I am so excited! I’m sure you are too. Christmas is such a wonderful time of the year and I love getting to study Jesus’ birth every year.

When I was trying to think of what I wanted to write about this Christmas I kept getting drawn back to Zechariah and Elizabeth. They’re not the most prominent people involved in the Christmas story, but their story is still extremely important and there are tons of lessons to be gleaned from it. So, I think this year I’m going to take a nontraditional route and talk about them.

Let’s talk about Zechariah first. He’s not the first person I think about when I think of the Christmas story, but as I was studying this past week, I thought it was really cool reading about how God worked in his life. Zechariah was a priest and if you asked anyone I’m sure they would have told you he was close with God. I mean, when God spoke to him he was performing a sacred ritual in the temple. That’s pretty close. However, what we discover quickly is that he and God may have had a great relationship, but there was still a part of him that was very human and closed off to God. He and Elizabeth had prayed for a baby for years and years, and at this time of this story they were old and had given up hope. At some point, they stopped believing that God could or would give them a baby. When, an angel came to Zechariah and told him they were going to have a child, and that he would be a prophet that went before God’s son, Zechariah was absolutely shocked. Just like anyone else, even though he walked with God and trusted him with his life, he doubted that this could really make the impossible happen.I thought this was a pretty normal reaction, but I think I forgot that God can do anything, just like Zechariah.

God’s response to his doubt was to make him mute until his son, John, was born. I was completely and utterly confused about God’s reason for this until I was doing the She Reads Truth study, and one of the authors explained the reason. He cared about Zechariah so much that he made him mute so that he could work on encouraging him to release that last little bit of his heart to him. I’ve noticed God do this with me before, as well. He’s never made me mute, but he has allowed me to get sick or injured, so I would have to stay home and have the time to make my relationship right with him. God doesn’t want us to suffer, but sometimes it’s necessary to help us pull our focus. It’s okay to doubt, worry, and question, but what’s important is that we come back to God. When we do come back we should have a similar reaction to Zechariah. When John was born and his voice returned to him, his first reaction was to praise God and tell everyone about what God had done for him and his family. That should be our reaction after every encounter we have with God. Essentially that’s all the time, because everything around us is something God created and has blessed us with.

I also love Elizabeth, his wife. She was one of Mary’s relatives and her faith was as strong as her husband’s. Elizabeth is a great example of how we should act in the presence of God, and how we should stand up for our faith. Mary came to visit her after she became pregnant with Jesus and the entire encounter was incredible. Elizabeth recognized the presence of Jesus immediately, even her baby jumped in her womb. Elizabeth was awed that she got the honor to be in the presence of Jesus, even when he was still in the womb. She felt unworthy and excited. Elizabeth is a great example of how we should react anytime we get to spend time in the presence of God. We should come with reverence, awe, and excitement.

Elizabeth also stood up for what God told her to do even when her friends and neighbors thought she was crazy. Everyone thought she should name her son after her husband, since it was the tradition at the time. However, Elizabeth knew that she should do what God commanded, and she named her baby John. We should always be like Elizabeth. The world will think we are insane for some of our actions, but none of that matters if what we are doing is God’s will.

 I believe their story greatly impacted Mary. The angel told Mary about Elizabeth when she questioned how she would get pregnant and assured her that nothing is impossible with God. I’m also going to go out on a limb and assume that Mary’s visit with Elizabeth helped calm any of her fears. Without Zechariah and Elizabeth I believe that Mary would have never have been as at peace as she was throughout her pregnancy.

Because of their faith, Zechariah and Elizabeth were blessed beyond measure. They both got to meet Jesus, in the flesh. Even in their old age, God blessed them with a son. Not only that, their son became one of the greatest prophets of the New Testament, best known as John the Baptist. We all have a lot to learn from their story, not just that we should remain faithful through any trials like they did when they were praying for a baby. We can learn from Zechariah’s story that we should always be strengthening our relationship with God, even when we are walking close because we can always get closer. He also shows us how we should react when God blesses us. We can learn how we should approach God  with reverence and awe from Elizabeth. We can also follow her lead and stand up for our faith just like she did.

I hope during this last week of the holiday season and beyond we can all keep these lessons in mind. I’m praying for you all and, as always, I ask that you pray the same for me.

Merry Christmas


This Week’s Spoken Word: HERE

  • Luke 1:5-25; 39-45; 57-66



I have to be honest the holidays are sneaking up on me and I didn’t even realize we were so close to Thanksgiving (probably why this is going up on Thursday, but let’s just keep thinking that I totally did this on purpose) Now it’s here. It’s Thanksgiving. The holidays are the busiest part of the year for me, and often I think I get caught up in all the madness. Sometimes, I think I just forget how awesome God is and everything he does for me. I forget how thankful I am for the life I’ve been given. It’s frustrating to think that I only remember to focus on my thankfulness during the holidays, and I’m working to change that.

I’ve been thinking about all the things I’m thankful for, and I began to make a list to help me write this Spoken Word. I realized everything I was thankful for came from God. God is pretty awesome and I think for this week I just want to talk about everything he is and does that we should be thankful for every single day.

It’s easy to forget how many things God provides for us on a daily basis. A teacher reminded me Tuesday. “If you don’t have what you’d like to have, be thankful for what you do have.” If you’re reading this you’ve at least got something pretty cool. Internet. I’m willing to bet that you’ve also got a house with some pretty nice things. I obviously could be wrong, I don’t know you all personally. I suppose I should speak for myself. It’s so easy to take for granted everything around me. I go to the pantry and pick out whatever snack I want. I have water coming out of faucets and a home with heat and air. I have a computer that helps me with school work and I can use it just for fun too. I often never think about how how easy it was for me to sit and make this blog. God provided me with everything I needed to start this venture. He provided me with inspiration from my friends, the drive to start it, and the talent to write poetry and the talent of being able to express my thoughts well when they are being written down. It’s also easy for me to forget it isn’t me doing the talking. Just the writing. I’m thankful for a God who gives me the words to say when I need them.I’m thankful he gives me what I need when I need it.

With God there is infinite joy no matter the situation. I’m so thankful for that, because without God’s joy I would just be a hopeless pile of crying mush. Recently, in Student Ministry, some parents of a student who passed away from my school spoke on how God is a God of comfort. They were thankful for the impact their son had on students he was friends with, even after he passed away. They were thankful for God, because of who he is. They were joyful even in one of their hardest situations of their lives. I’m thankful for a God of joy who can give peace and happiness in times of trouble.

I’m just plain thankful for a God who puts up with all my mistakes. I’m thankful for his forgiveness and his constant presence even when I’m being a not-so-great person and I’m not always meeting him when and where I should be. I’m thankful he doesn’t give up on me even when it seems like I could be giving up on him. He always shows me his power and strength. I’m thankful that he shows me when I make mistakes and then when he proceeds to be an unswerving support while I’m working towards growing.

I’m thankful for the series of events in history that led to this exact moment in history, with all our technology and improvements in overall world health. All of them were in God’s perfect plan. I’m thankful for Jesus and the fact that he died for me. I’m thankful to live in the United States where I can worship a God freely in a church that anyone can come to. I’m thankful for the life I’ve been given. I could go on and on, but honestly, I’m just thankful. I’m thankful for everything and I don’t even know how to express this overwhelming gratitude I feel.

This is probably the most cheesy thing people say on Thanksgiving, but I’m going to say it anyway. Always remember that we shouldn’t just be thankful on Thanksgiving. Thankfulness is important every, single day of the year. I know that it’s really easy for me to forget that, and I’m almost positive I’m not alone in that struggle. If we don’t look back at all we have laid before us, we forget how awesome God is and how blessed we really are. I pray that during this holiday season, we all can remember how much we truly have to be thankful for, and I pray we will remember everyday to thank God for everything he has provided for us.

Wishing You all the happiest of Thanksgivings!


Bible Verses about Thanksgiving:

  • Psalm 9:1
  • Psalm 107:8-9
  • 1 Chronicles 16:34
  • Psalm 100:4
  • 1 Thessalonians 5:18

P.S. I know the holidays can be hard for many people, but just remember that even though it is a time for remembering and celebrating people we lost, there is a God who is always there when we are hurting. He never leaves us. He provides comfort for those who are suffering and a peace in knowing that if those we love were believers, we will see them again one day. That’s quite something to be thankful for.

P.P.S. I’m also super thankful for all my friends, family, and others around me. I could never be the person I am without them. I could never be writing things like this without all your encouragement and support. Thank you all for being there for me and helping me through anything and everything. I’m grateful I get to go through life will all you amazing people. You guys know who you are. 😉

 This Week’s Spoken Word: HERE


Everything is Going to Be Okay

“Life is difficult and full of disappointments, but that’s okay.”

-Jess Helms (me)

There’s a good story behind that quote. I promise. In fact, for a long time, that wasn’t even the quote. It was originally, “Life is difficult and full of disappointments.” It was an inside joke between myself and my best friends when little things didn’t go our way, but slowly I realized that it was pretty pessimistic. So, when I writing this Spoken Word, God showed me how I can turn a pretty negative statement into a super uplifting statement. I think it’s even better now than when I created it.

Psalm 34:17 – When the righteous cry for help, the LORD hears and delivers them out of all their troubles.

I’m not under the impression that I have some horrible life. I know that I’m incredibly blessed and I have a ton of opportunities that many people around the world don’t have. I have a great community of Christian friends surrounding me and a church I can call my home all the time. (but let’s not talk about everything I’m thankful for… that’s for next time) However, just like everyone else, I do have rough times. I get sad, angry, and hurt. I’m sure you can relate. Struggling is no fun, especially when you feel like you are going through it alone. I have good news. God is beside you through everything. He is always right by your side when your struggles seem to overwhelm you. God uses our struggles to help us grow closer to him and he helps strengthen us in our faith. God even uses our struggles to help others around us grow.

These last few months have been pretty rough, but God really used them as an opportunity to teach me how to lean on him and not the people around me. I lost some things that were really important to me, and I genuinely felt like I could never possibly recover. Looking back, I realize how much God helped me through probably the hardest time of my life, and how losing those things have really helped me mature. At the time, all I could do was just pray that he would take the pain away, and everyday a little bit of pain left my soul. And I’m not saying everything is rosy now. Sometimes a hint of those negative feelings still sneaks in, but God always puts joy in its place. Without all those struggles God allowed me to go through, I would never have changed my perspective. I’m sure I wouldn’t be making videos and creating blog posts like this.

Often, God uses our struggles to encourage others around us. Whether that be someone seeing you in the middle of your struggle and watching you lean on God, or you using that situation as a part of your testimony to encourage others afterwards-which allows you to show how God has gotten you through it You get to show them you are still okay and joyful at the other side of it. This gives you a great opportunity to give the glory to God.

I bet you guessed it. I have a story to go with this point too. 😉

So a few months before I hit my “rock bottom” one of my friends hit it first and bounced back. I remember calling her and saying I felt like “all the strings broke.” She reminded me that there were always ways for me to bounce back and that God was going to get me through it no matter what. She really used her experiences to bring me back to the reality of how powerful God is. He had me in the palm of his hand the entire time and when I put my focus on him I could truly feel that. She helped me through it by sharing what God showed her through her experiences. It was super helpful to have a strong Christian who had gone through the same things as me there to talk to me and have encourage me in my relationship with Christ.

A few months after I began to start healing, another one of my friends began having to deal with something very similar. This time myself and the friend who helped me both tried to encourage her. We both shared our individual experiences and how God got us through them. I like to believe our stories helped her at least a little bit. That’s what being a part of the church is all about. We are there for each other to encourage and draw those around us closer to God.

The point I’m trying to make is… embrace your struggles. They’re obviously not fun, and sometimes it’s hard to remember that God has a purpose for everything that happens. However, the sooner you look up and consider why you might be going through that at this particular time in your life, you can begin to lean on God and he will show you exactly where your path is headed. As long as you remember to stay faithful to him things will always get better, because God will never let you struggle forever. He will use your struggles in ways you can never imagine. Just remember if you’re not okay, it’s not the end.

I’m praying that all of you will remain strong in your faith and that you will lean on God throughout all your struggles. I hope you all will also be praying for me these next few weeks as well.

I love you all very much and I appreciate your support.


Bible Verses:

  • Psalm 9:9
  • Psalm 56:3-4
  • 1 John 4:4
  • Romans 8:18
  • Philippians 4:19
  • James 1:12
  • 2 Corinthians 1:9

This week’s Spoken Word: HERE


Trust and Belief

When I created this blog I didn’t know what I wanted to call it. I tried a lot of ideas and either they were taken or I just didn’t like how they sounded. Eventually I came up with “trust and belief”. At first I didn’t know how to relate those two words and coming up with a “Spoken Word” was kind of difficult. This was probably because I didn’t really take the time to think about what they meant. But when I did and I studied more verses, prayed and really thought about these two ideas; in the end, I learned a lot.

Essentially trust and belief mean pretty much the same thing. The definition of trust is “firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.” Now, you may have noticed that the word belief is in the definition of trust. I’ll get back to that in a second. Here’s the definition of belief: “trust, faith, or confidence in someone or something.” Trust is in the definition of belief. While doing this research I discovered that they are synonyms. I’m sure you came to that conclusion as well.

Whether you call it trust or belief the idea is the basis of giving over control to God and letting him complete the task.

Honestly, I am a very stubborn person. I’m not a huge fan of change, and I like to be in control. One of my biggest struggles is giving that control over and just going a long for the ride.

Recently, I got really sad. There is something I’ve been really praying about and it seems to be going nowhere fast. All I wanted was to see results and I felt like God wasn’t listening and I was fighting an uphill battle alone. In times like this it is really easy to get discouraged. I believe in God’s faithfulness, but often I find it difficult to trust that he will take care of everything, especially when it feels like everything is going wrong. When I get to this point, I like to look back in the bible and see stories where God has shown his power to the people who believe and trust in him.

Bartimaeus believed that Jesus could give him back his sight, and he did. This did not require any action on his part, just the faith that Jesus, being the Son of God, could change everything about his current situation. (Mark 10:46-52). Peter trusted that Jesus would help him walk on the water, and he did. However, as soon as he stopped trusting him he began to sink (Matthew 14:22-33). The Israelites wandered for 40 years and they still believed that God would provide a land for them. They walked for all those years in a land where they were afraid they would never find a home, but God provided for them. In fact, this land sill belongs to them today. My favorite is probably Mary and Joseph. They both trusted that God was going to take care of them. Even when Mary could have been punished for her pregnancy, Joseph wasn’t sure what to do, and there was no room for them in the inns. God provided for them through the entire way and in the end they became the earthly parents of the Messiah. There are so many more examples of this in the Bible and I think that is so encouraging.

Everyone who believes is saved. That’s amazing. All we have to do is believe that Jesus died for us and saved us from our sins, and we get to have a relationship with him. I just think that’s incredible. It doesn’t take good works or a series of steps to receive salvation. We just have to believe.

We have so much evidence supporting that the word of God is true, and yet, it is still hard to trust in God sometimes. When I feel a lack of faith, I just have to remember, “If all of these people and many more can trust God through their trials, and I can trust God through mine.” He has proven over and over again that he is faithful. We just have to trust his process and believe in his power.

I was talking to my best friends about this particular situation, and one of them reminded me why I keep waiting and trusting. God keeps his promises. She reminded me that I just have to trust that God is going to do the rest of the work if it’s in his will. Everything will work out in God’s timing, his way. His way is going to be more awesome than I can ever imagine. My job is to plant a seed and pray. Let me tell you, I truly believe in the power of prayer. Every time I’m feeling sad or discouraged prayer is my number one defense. After I pray, I usually feel a little less hopeless and God reminds me over and over again that he is in control. I just have to believe that he has the power to turn my situation around. Since coming to this realization, I have seen some steps forward that I probably would have never seen if I didn’t relinquish the control over to God. I love seeing how God works in the lives of those who put their trust in him.

I pray that all of you believe that God can provide for you even in your darkest times. I pray that you trust in his faithfulness.

If you share some of my struggles or are dubious to the truth of the ideas I have shared, I encourage you to read the stories I mentioned or the verses listed below. You can also message me and I can share more about my experience with trusting and believing in God’s faithfulness.

Always remember that prayer is a powerful connection to God and I encourage you to pray without ceasing. God will reveal some of his most powerful truths though a personal connection with him.


Bible Verses relating to Trust:

  • Joshua 1:9
  • Psalm 9:10
  • Psalm 56:3
  • Proverbs 3:5-6
  • Romans 15:13

Bible Verses relating to Belief:

  • John 20:29
  • John 14:1
  • John 3:16
  • Romans 8:38-39

(Here’s a completely unrelated story, but prayer is cool and I’d like to share)

About a week ago, I had an audition for a choir. I got sick about the week before, and I had been unable to practice. For the days up until that audition and even the minutes before, I prayed that I would get my voice back for at least my audition. All I wanted was to be proud of my audition and know that I performed to the best of my ability, regardless of the results. That day I learned a simple truth, God provides. I got my voice back in my audition, and it was probably my best audition ever. I tried to sing after and my voice was back to being scratchy (go figure). I realized then that God had answered my prayer, and that was such a cool feeling. I may have not made that choir, but I’m proud of my audition and God really revealed how he works. I truly believe that he was there, helped calm my nerves and gave me back my voice so I could use my gifts for his glory. (much of the music was faith based which is also really cool) This was a very minor situation, but if God cares enough to answer my prayer about getting my voice back for an audition, imagine how much he cares about healing a sick family member, helping you find a job, or even leading someone you are praying for to Christ. Matthew 6:26 says, Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?” Essentially, he is saying, “God cares about the birds in the sky, don’t you think he cares about those who were created in his image.?” No prayer is too small, and God never leaves a prayer unanswered.

This Week’s Spoken Word: HERE